selfish

I'm sitting on a train from Manchester to London. I put my case on the luggage rack on top of another case and went to sit down. Aa woman nearby came to me and said, “Excuse me, you put your case on top of mine -  I don’t want that!” I was shocked. Had I done something taboo? Something wrong?

Sometimes as a person on the autistic spectrum, I may do things without realizing that it might be wrong, but then people next to me came to my rescue and said, “He's right, this rack is meant for several cases. He can put his case there.” 

The woman became a bit of a ‘Karen’ and kept complaining. Another woman came and sorted the luggage space out so that there was space for my case and the other woman stopped complaining.

The whole situation got the cogs in my brain whirling around again.

It’s astonishing how people have egos, are selfish and think of nobody else except themselves.

We come across this phenomenon often and I often rack my brain as to why one would not think of other people before oneself. 

Another saga also just turned up: There’s a woman I know who is fighting for custody of her sons.

I was helping her out and one day, I introduced her to a woman leader in Chabad circles and she asked this leader that all Chabad would deny mikva* access to all women in order to make the community rally around to help her in her custody battle. (*going to the monthly ritual bath for women that means they can have relations with their husbands afterwards, denying this ritual means that they cannot have relations.) 

Once I heard that request, I stepped back from helping. The protest has grown and someone asked why don’t we get Chabad involved? I mentioned that Chabad was involved, but due to the mikva denial request, they don’t want to help anymore. So now the group has going against me despite that I did not do anything wrong. I TRY HELP EVERYONE WHEREVER I AM! 

I fight for justice wherever I go but I cannot be responsible for someone else’s actions.

I pray for this woman and I hope she gets to see her sons, but to ask to deny mikva is a big no no in my eyes. There are certain things that one doesn’t do even if one is desperate. 

As I have said, don’t be selfish and good things will come.

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